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Hello and welcome. It is so wonderful to connect with you. I just love that you are here continuing to expand your mind, your energy, your consciousness, your healing. I just love it. And today's episode is really interesting, and I think that I'm going to leave it at that interesting and expansive and wonderful.

And our volunteer, he's just, he's, he's so precious and wonderful and sweet. I just love him so much. And the topic that came up for him, I got to admit it, I had to work on clearing my own energy because it definitely pushed me outside of my own comfort zone. And I'll explain why that is as we dive in.

But if you recall, we are working with Dave, our beautiful volunteer. We were working with him on last week's episode also where, you know, some things that came up for him. And so if you recall, He was having a hard time with sleep. And we had also talked about this feeling of fear that would come over him and it wasn't really fear, but it was as a kid.

And so he had just a lot of different emotions that were coming up for him. And, you know, we've, it's been an interesting awareness of being able to see the different emotions that came up. And part of that, of course, has to do with his sexuality and feeling so much shame around being gay. And, and so just a lot of things came up.

And, you know, as we were talking a few times, he said, you know, this is the last thing that I expected to come up. And And that is part of what is insightful, you know, there, I mean, there are just so many insights from this episode. And part of that is, you know, when we have unresolved things, things that we feel bad about or guilty about, or don't quite feel good about in our lives, it can affect us even when we don't realize it.

And so I have to say, you know, this is an interesting topic. And again, it definitely. Push me outside of my comfort zone and I'll explain why that is or you'll see why that is as we go But a very very insightful episode very helpful And again, I just I could not love Dave more he is just an absolute sweet art so precious and a really powerful episode and so that said Let's go ahead and dive in with beautiful Dave.

Here we go

That's like wait a minute. Wait a minute God designed you a certain way that that little crazy little voice, you know And so there's a little bit of that residue still in there doesn't quite feel free Okay, and um, thank you being honest. I hear you. I hear you. I'm with you now really quickly How do you know for sure?

God said That there's not supposed to be any gay people. Yeah. I mean, exactly. Yeah. I mean, it's just what was communicated to me my whole life, you know, growing up and in churches and whatnot, you know, and this is a, I didn't really want to go that direction, but I think there's something underneath all this.

Um, you're getting deep fast. And, yeah, it's what I learned growing up, it's what I absorbed, and there's even still a part of me that wonders, Hmm, uh, there's a question mark, if you will. Uh, I'm not fully one way or fully another in terms of my perspective on that, but there's definitely a challenge, a question mark, that can't be fully liberated.

Or I'm not fully liberated in my perspective on that. Okay. I'm just being honest. Absolutely. I wish I were liberated. I hear you. I hear you. And so, um, bingo. All right. So give me one second. And, um, I'm thinking the best way to go with this. Give me one second. And, um,

All right, so let's go ahead and pause this for just a moment. Now, notice right before I paused it, I said on, when I was working with him, I said, well, let me figure out the best way to move forward with this. And that's the part that felt a bit uncomfortable. And I want to just unpack this for a moment.

You know, if you think about his relationship with God and, you know, he's reading the Bible every night before he goes to bed. And the thing of it is, is of course, I always want to respect everybody's religion and he's so great. So it's not just about him. He was just in flow and wonderful. So it's not just about Dave.

It was really about speaking about the Bible in general. And because I come from a Lutheran background, my, half of my family is still very much into Christianity. Very, very strong. And so I know the whole Bible debates from long ago. Um, though I haven't been in any of them for a long time. And, and it's something that, you know, this whole conversation about God and all of that, that I've kind of, to be honest, avoid because I don't ever want to offend anybody.

And so right there, I was like, well, let's see what the best way to go with this. And the reason is because I found myself just wanting to, of course, do whatever made everybody happy. Or said another way, I didn't want to offend anybody. And I didn't want anybody to get upset about disagreeing with the Bible.

And so that's when I was like, you know, I had to change my own energy on it. And by the way, you might be in a place where you're like, Oh, The Bible and you're, you know, a recovering Catholic or recovering Christian and running from it. And I get that. Or you might be somebody who regularly reads it. Now, if you think about past episodes, I've definitely quoted the Bible before where, you know, I've said in Proverbs, you know, a merry heart is a medicine to the body.

Ill thoughts will dry the bones. You know, healing with the mind is actually even in the Bible, you know, and so there's some really great philosophy in the Bible. And I love that. And there are also a lot of things in the Bible that I don't agree with. And kind of what I was going to do right here is I was going to play it very neutral and just say, well, you know, you decide and leave it at that.

But the issue with this that I have is that In the Bible, there are many, many places. Where God is said to have asked Moses to kill millions of people, okay? Or even, it's written in the Bible that, you know, if your kid curses their mother or father, stone them to death. You know, kill them. Or if a kid is a drunkard, you know, and all these things, like, kill them.

Stone them to death. And, so there's so many different references to stoning them to death. Or even in Exodus where it's said that, God is basically telling people that they own slaves, like they can own another person, and you know, there's one part where it literally says in the Bible, it says, you know, God's fair treatment of slaves, that, you know, if you beat a slave with a rod and they die, then you get punished.

But if you beat a slave with a rod and they get up after a day or two, Then no problem. Okay. And I'm like, wait a second here. Like this, the problem that I have with this is, you know, the times were different and my issue is, is this, is that I don't believe that God ever. Condoned slavery and killing kids and killing millions of people and stone your kids if they don't listen or if they curse their parents.

Like, I don't actually believe that ever happened. It just doesn't seem logical, you know, all day. Working with people, I'm always checking energy, source, God, energy, whatever name you want to use. And I think that's one of the things that, you know, as I was coming into this topic, I found myself wanting to just not offend anybody and just say, you know.

Well, maybe the Bible's true. Maybe it's not. Just kind of like, kind of do that. Just, just say, you know, for you to decide. But this is the issue that I have with that. It's this. It's like, imagine if somebody wrote a book about you that said, you said. It was okay to kill kids, kill millions of people, and have slaves, and you condoned slavery, and killing people, and rape, and all of these things, and you condoned it.

If somebody wrote a book about you, that said those things about you, I would be like, Wait a second, that's defamation, that's false. I wouldn't want anybody to say those things about you. And so, in my heart of hearts, like, even though I just wanted to, you know, again, not offend anybody and not say anything, I, I do have to say that I think that the Bible has some amazing philosophy in it, and I can't agree with it.

Like I just, I, I can't. And maybe you're somebody who's already there, again, that's why I was like, I have to change my energy on this, is because I do come from a very Catholic, Christian, Lutheran background, and I say the combination because all three are, you know, woven throughout history. I was born Catholic.

baptized Lutheran. Uh, so, you know, I grew up in all of this, but I just, uh, like, you know, the relationship that I have with God, and that's what I would say to everybody is, you know, really create an amazing relationship with God, universe, energy, divine, whatever name you want to use. Of course, it's all the same, but I can't just kindly agree with a Bible or kindly not say, Hey, you know, I can't just appease everybody when I think that it speaks really poorly about God.

And I think that, you know, universe spirituality, I think a lot of people have gotten disconnected from spirituality because of all the chaos around it. And so, of course. You know, I, again, I still don't want to offend anybody at all. That's not at all my goal, but it's kind of like, I just feel like you can't sit quietly while somebody's saying something about somebody, you know, it's not the right thing to do.

So just noting that, that part of our conversation does talk a little bit about the Bible and there are also some other really great insights. But. I just wanted to let you know ahead of time that that is where we go a bit, um, not excessively, but um, it is part of the journey and that's part of, if you, if we bring everything together, you know, that's part of what he's experiencing is that.

He's gay, and then he's reading this Bible that's telling him he shouldn't be, and it's bad, and it's wrong. And of course, that's gonna bring up a lot of guilty feelings, and that exact same thing happened with me. You know, you, you feel like you're doing the wrong thing, and you don't know, and it's messing with your mind, and, and of course, that's part of the insight from this part.

Is exactly that, you know, he, even if you listen to him, he, you know, that's one of the things he said, he said, you know, I wish I was liberated from this. And the thing that you want to remember is that the only person who can liberate you from these things is you. And the other thing you want to remember is this, and this is profound because if you could see into your energy, these things, these guilty things or shame things that You have been you kind of bury and you think that okay.

Well, I'm just gonna put that on the back burner I don't know or I'm just gonna shove that down I want to tell you they can affect your health and your life and It's not only that they can they are in some way like if you have guilt if you have shame if you have feeling bad for something And you have that buried in your being, then in some way, maybe it's financial.

Maybe it is your health. Maybe it's your happiness. Maybe it's your marriage. Maybe it could be anything. But it's affecting you and so if this brings up something for you where you feel like oh my gosh Maybe it's about your sexuality. Maybe it's not. Maybe it's about something completely different, but whatever it is I want to invite you to to really think about it and also liberate yourself from it.

You know, and by the way, that's what we are going to be talking about is liberating yourself from it and also sexuality and the Bible. So, and um, and creating a real shift in your life and being a good person. So that said, with this beautiful, beautiful being Dave, I'm going to go ahead and dive back in.

Here we go.

Okay. So this is my trend. My transparency is first and foremost, for me, if I look at the Bible, every part of the Bible has a completely different tone to it. Um, in one part it's punishing and another part it's loving it. It's got every, each part has a different voice to it. And so If I were going to believe in the Bible, I would have to either believe that God has multiple personality disorder, or, or

I would say a bunch of people who are really, really great, who had good intentions. Uh, wrote the Bible with maybe, maybe able to channel information and, you know, get information from God and take information and put it into the book. And it was also written 3000 years ago. So I would say that the Bible has some really great, um, insight from it.

And I quote the Bible periodically where, you know, if we, if we look, a merry heart is a medicine to the body, ill thoughts will dry the bones. And so I, I agree with, okay. Um, I would also say that, you know, I don't want to, there's, there's so many, um, arguments about the Bible, uh, that I don't want to, um, offend anybody either.

Um, but I would also say that, um, there are places that. It feels as though the Bible supports slavery. And so I think that there are a lot of things that are, uh, that were, uh, a cultural thing at the time, if you will. Old Testament versus new Testament, very different personality. Um, I completely understand where you're going with that.

I would say that we are in a different time. I would also say that when we stop and look at it, we have almost 8 billion people on the planet. And. About if you look 100 years ago that I mean the population is like tripled in 100 years and so if it keeps tripling, I mean, okay, so if we triple in the next 100 years, we're going to have was that 24 billion people on planet, which and which is no way we will have water and food forever.

It's not sustainable. And I would say that evolution is happening for a variety of different reasons. And, um, and I would also say a lot of people are getting. Um, there's, there's a lot of changes going on. We'll put it this, even if we look at the younger generation, it's right now where there's a lot of people who are, you know, non binary and this and that.

Yeah. They're, they're not even identifying with a gender. And I would say that I would say, I would say this is part of the reason why I would say that our cultural roles. Put a lot of pressure and say that men should be like this, and women should be like this, and that these spiritual beings are coming in and saying, Well, I'm not either of those.

What do you mean? And I would say that where, I would say that, you know, where a lot of people might look at non binary people and say, Well, what's wrong with them? They should identify as non binary. man or woman based off their genital, you know, and their, their physical appearance. And I would say, but that's not necessarily the problem.

I would say it's all of the pressure that society's putting on everything. So I would say that, which takes on a different definition, you know, and so,

all right, so let's go ahead and pause it just for a quick moment. You know, first and foremost, again, just, I love Dave. I love his self awareness. He's just a beautiful, beautiful being. And, you know, like he said it, I'm agreeing. This is the last place. That he or I expected the conversation to go as into sexuality and now, you know, also then talking about different genders.

And, and I want to take a moment just to kind of share, because I think it needs to be, I guess I'm just seeing so many people have really hard times around sexuality these days. And, you know, maybe this is happening in your country or your city, and maybe it's not around you at all. Uh, but I know that For a lot of people I'm seeing families struggle with gender changes and parents who have kids who are, you know, transgender or non binary or, you know, or gay or whatever.

I mean, there's just so many changes going on right now. And I want to invite you, if you are somebody who is having a hard time with that, or if you're somebody who is But like, there's just, I mean, it just, there's so many things. And so one of the things that I just said right here, as I was talking to Dave, is I mentioned that.

There are a lot of social stresses around gender these days, and that is one aspect of it. Is it, you know, what are you supposed to be to be a man? And, and with social media, and what are you supposed to be to be a woman, a girl, you know? As far as these kids, there are so many stresses, but there is another factor that I see as well, which I didn't exactly speak to here, and so I'm going to take a moment to just do that.

You know, when I check the energy of it, this is what I see. is when we stop and look at our population, our population is growing exponentially about a billion people a decade ish or 10, 12 years, 13 in there. So even if you think about our population, it is literally doubled since the 1970s. Now, if you stop and think about it, if it does the exact same thing, if it just keeps going at a billion about every 10 years, I mean, a few things we are going to run out of.

Resources, I mean, water, food, land, how much is property gonna be there? I mean, literally, we cannot keep the population growth this fast, this much. And I see part of all the sexuality changes and this, that, the other having to do with this. Now I know some people, there's a lot of different thoughts on this.

Um, but when I check the energy, this is what I see. And for some people, they might think, well, God, universe, divine wouldn't do that. And that doesn't make any sense. But even if you think about other species. They do the exact same thing. If there's overpopulation or underpopulation, and even if you stop and think about it, so random, but a marijuana plant, if you're familiar with marijuana plants, they have gender too.

So you can have one that's a male and one's a female. Marijuana plant, and if you stress the plant out, it will actually become both sexes, and basically, you know, random, but what happens is that, you know, when, with a male and a female, it'll seed the plant, so then, it's kind of like if you take a female plant, and it becomes really, really stressed in the environment, It will suddenly turn into a hermaphrodite plant that then is able to suddenly create seeds everywhere.

And this is how it keeps the plant alive is because that's exactly what happens. So it gets stressed and it gets both genders. So it And so point being is that there are all kinds of changes. Now, of course, there are a lot of other things going on in our culture. And, and, you know, some of them aren't as natural as, as all of that.

And so I'm not saying that there are, I'm just saying that a lot of the changes and the sexuality and all kinds of things, like when I look at the energy of it. It is directly connected to the growth of the population and from that, you know, likely we're going to have a lot more, I mean, it's just going to continue to grow.

We're going to have different gender things and, and non binary, I mean, it's just going to be, which is beautiful because when we just start to love. Each person for who they are, and the way they show up, we don't need to worry about, you know, uh, uh, judge all that and anything like that. And by the way, you know, this is not to say that gay people shouldn't have kids, they absolutely should if they want, or this, that, like, everybody should, you know, just not judge what everybody else is doing, is really, ultimately how I feel.

But, point being, is just correcting, uh, What I was speaking with Dave, I was kind of adding to it because when I, in, in full transparency, again, another thing that people may not want to hear. So part of me was just playing it safe and just saying, Hey, there's these cultural differences also. But the truth of it is my transparency.

Is that's not a hundred percent what I see, what it, the rest of what I see in full transparency is I also see that it has to do with the population. So that again, you know, it's so funny because if given the opportunity to offend people, I prefer not to. So I, and, and then because I'm always impeccable with my wording, now you hear me going back and clearing some things up just to make sure that it is impeccable.

And so. That's my point on that, and so on that note, let's go ahead and dive back in with Beautiful Dave. Here we go.

So, in the Bible, it also, I mean, there's parts that say, you know, if your kid is disobedient, take them out and stone them to death. Right? Right. Anyone who curses their mother or father should be put to death, right? So if you just went ahead and put them to death, right? I see where you're going. Yeah, I mean, I can't imagine, in my, I cannot imagine, anywhere, where God, the God that I know, God, universe, divine, whatever you want to call it, says, hey, your kid is disobedient, go and kill him.

I just, I can't, go stone him, stone him, just stone him, yeah, yeah, everybody, you know, just stone him. I, I just, sorry, but I just can't wrap my head around God ever, God, universe, divine, ever, like I just can't believe in a God that would say that. Right, right, I'm with you. So what's, uh, so where I'm with you is, I totally am with you at one level.

Great, great, great, great, great, great, great, so come with me for a moment. So I'm going to ask you to breathe. Okay.

All right. So, uh, let's go ahead and pause it just for a quick moment. You know, first and foremost, again, Dave, he's just, he's so wonderful and you can probably tell he's obviously he's great at analyzing information. And the reason I interrupted here was because I want to bring him into his emotions. And that's what you'll want to do with yourself.

And by the way, you know, if you're familiar with my story, I used to do network engineering and operations. So very, very much analyzing and in very strong analytical mind. And I had to get good with my emotions. Typically, somebody like Dave, and not saying with Dave, but typically somebody like Dave would have really great self awareness, because he can analyze information, and is really quick to get concepts, which is really great, but not good at shifting emotions typically at all, because Basically, they're not good at cultivating and creating new emotions.

And so they can analyze them. They can discover them. They can have great self awareness, but cultivating, creating, creating that emotional shift is typically not going to be somebody with an analytical mind. It's not going to be their strong suit. And the reason that I know that so well is because that was me and I had to change.

I had to get really good at emotions. And so again, I'm not saying that Dave's like that. But he could be, if not careful, and that's the reason that I interrupted him right here is because I really want to get him into his emotions because, as you can tell, he's more in his head. And so I want to invite you to do that same thing, is that, you know, when you stop and think about our emotional energy that helps create our lives, if we don't shift that energy, those emotions, if we don't get new stuff in and change out the old and really make a change.

And we don't change our lives or health so much, you know, and so that's the point here is just kind of using this as a moment to say, if you are in your head, make sure to drop into your emotions, feel, feel, feel to create that shift. So that said, let's go ahead and dive back in with Dave. Here we go.

So if you were to look at the Bible as though it has insight in it. But then there's also cultural things in it, like, I mean, taking out your kids and stoning and killing your kids if they're disobedient. I mean, could you imagine the God that you know saying, hey, if your kid is disobedient or a drunkard, just take them out, have this, you know, this city, everybody stone him to death?

No. Could you? No. No. No. Right? So, so maybe there's insight with the, in it. And there's also some cultural beliefs that have been woven through it that may not fully be appropriate. Yeah. Mm hmm. How does that? Okay. Oh, I'm totally, totally, totally 100 percent comfortable with that. Okay, so if I ask you, could you change your relationship with the Bible, if you want, and I would also recommend changing the time that you read it.

I mean, also, and by the way, I think there's another part in the Bible that says, you know, if you hit your slave with a rod and he dies, then you're punished. But if not, Then if, if he gets back up in a day or two, then there's no problem or something. You know what I mean? There's, do you know which part I'm talking about?

I think it's Leviticus, but I'm not sure. It's pretty wild. Some of those things you're, you're right. My point is just that, and it's not to, to offend anybody with the Bible or, or say any, I just, There are certain phrases and words and parts of the Bible that I can look at and say, My God, the God, Universe, Divine, that I ask questions to every day, the one that I get information from every day, would never say, Your kids are disobedient.

Just kill him. Just stone him. They would never say, hey, you own another man. If you, and if you hit him with a rod and he dies and you're in trouble, but if you don't, he gets back up in at least a day or two, you're fine. That's not the same God that I know. That's what I, that's what I, what I can tell you is, is that, and, and so what I would invite you to do, um, even as far as, so as far as your sexuality, I would invite you to just To really look through that lens and, and, and realize, and bingo, um, the God that I know would not say no to love.

And, and love and connection or even adult intimacy and even just adult fun, as long as it's consensual. And then there's not a problem with it. You know, it's not hurting anybody. It's not harming anybody. Um, that is the way that I see it. And that's the way bingo, that is the information that I get. So, um, so that's, that's the best I can offer you in that area.

And so what I would say is, um, one, I mean, if it didn't feel like too much of a stretch, what you may want to do. Is maybe even go a month and, and not read the Bible at all for a month and kind of just change your, work on changing your relationship with it. So you can maybe read some insight from it, but it's not making you feel bad.

And then I think if you could maybe, let's say you take a month and you get away from that feeling and you really work on feeling good in you. And then what I would do is in a month, Go back and pick up the Bible and read it and see and notice how it makes you feel. Because if it makes you feel worse and you'll notice that contrast.

So it'll give you some space. If you can work on yourself and feel like a good person and really take it in from a different way and feel that, and then go back and pick up the Bible. And notice if it makes you feel good or if it makes you feel worse. And if it makes you feel worse, then I would say do more work.

On it before you're spending a lot of time with it. Does that make sense? Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. I totally get where you're going. Yes. Beautiful. Beautiful. All right. So I'm going to ask you to breathe and I'm going to ask you to just bring in the awareness and bring in the feeling that you deserve to live a great life, that you're a good person and you deserve to live a great life.

And I want you to bring in that feeling and notice also, by the way, I know that this topic is probably the last place that both of us thought that this call would go and I didn't have any expectations, but also notice you mentioned that you don't sleep as well if you have a partner, um, or you're thinking about a partner, right?

Mm-Hmm. . Okay. So you see the trigger, right? Mm-Hmm. . Yeah. Oh, yeah. Yeah. Okay. And so if I could ask you also to, to really, like, if I ask you, you've known that there's been this thought in the back of your mind that said, maybe you're not a good person if blah, blah, blah. Like, you, you've, you've fill in the blank.

Yes. Mm-Hmm. . Mm-Hmm. . Okay. And so if I ask you. if you were really ready to transform that. Like if you're, if you're ready to get off the fence, so to speak, and all the way aligned with you are a good person and you're okay. Is that a question? It is. Yes. I am. I am ready. Okay. Really ready? Yes. Okay. So the thing of it is, is you know that nobody can make that decision for you, but you, right?

Because I mean, I could of course say, Hey, it's this way. And then your mind could still think, well, there's the Bible or there's this. And then somebody else could be like, well, it's the other way. Right. And if you're always looking for like, what do you think? What do I think? Are you asking the question?

Yeah. What do I think about, about what? About, about feeling as though like having shame about your sex life, having shame about your sexuality. Yeah. Um, what do you, could you make a decision? Like if I asked you to decide. One way or the other. What would you decide? Is it okay, or is it not okay? It's okay.

Great. It's okay. I may, I might, I might sometimes choose it and sometimes not, but it's okay. You understand what I'm saying? I mean, I may choose to do it sometimes and choose to be celibate sometimes, but that's my choice, but the act itself is okay. Okay, great, and absolutely, and, and, uh, bingo. And so, as long as you're choosing to be celibate for the right reasons, Yeah, not because it's bad.

Not because it's just because you say, Hey, just because I say, Hey, yeah. And by the way, I don't judge anyone else. I'm totally non judgmental about anyone else. I'm only judgmental about myself. You say that like it's a great thing. Right? Am I right? I only judge myself. I only judge myself. But that's what we're talking about.

I know. I know. No more. I'm messed up. No wonder I don't sleep well. Hey, hey, hey, hey, hey. Okay. Okay, so I want you to, I'm going to ask you to close your eyes. All right. And I'm gonna ask you to think about the awareness that your thoughts are powerful, right? Yes. Mm hmm. Do you really want to beat yourself up?

No. Your thoughts are powerful. Go ahead. Beat yourself up. Punch yourself in the face. Or not. Which one do you choose? Love. Love. Love, love, love. So I'm gonna ask you to breathe. And so are you messed up or are you not messed up? No, I'm pretty good. Pretty amazing. Yeah, you're pretty amazing. There's a part of you that absolutely knows that, right?

Yes. Yes. Yes. Mm hmm. So I'm going to ask you just for a moment to breathe. And bingo. Now I have to say, I feel, uh, I feel a sense of stuckness because I, you, you can see the, the thread, the thread that we need to go on, right? You see how everything's connecting, correct? Okay, so I see your attachment, like, uh, as far as the trigger goes, the Bible is a huge trigger.

And I, when it comes to people's spiritual and religious beliefs and certain things, like I obviously, everybody's in choice of where they want to be. And I always want to respect where those choices are. And, um, and half to half of my family still, uh, very much in the Christian religion and, and very, very deep in it.

And so I, I'm really good at, at respecting people's belief system and, and all of that. And, um, and I do see it, the Bible as being a trigger before bet. So what I'd want you to, what I'd invite you to really do, uh, would be not to read it for the next 30 days. Is that a, is that a. Request that you feel like is doable or no.

Yes. Yes. I feel like it's great. I just I'm very open, you know I'm not afraid of you know, my relationship to god. I'm not afraid of it. Um, you know, uh, No, no I don't think that me reading the bible for 30 days or not reading it for 30 days is is some horrible thing You know what i'm saying? Perfect. Great if it helps me reframe.

Hey, that's that's a great action item. Perfect. Great. And on that note, your relationship with God, could you change this relationship with God around feeling like a good person and, and really bringing that in, um, and embodying that change? Yes. Yes, I could. Yes. Because I have felt that before. Okay, great.

And so, um, bingo. So I'm going to ask you just for a moment to breathe. The other thing that I want to invite you to do, you like to read a lot. Is that correct? I do read. Yes. Um, so I want to invite you also to make a list of reasons why you're a good person. And read them every day, because you're visual, you're a reader, and, and it just, I think, if you could do that, a bunch of reasons why you're a good person and starting to take that in, that would be really helpful as well.

Does that make sense? Yeah, that's cool. Beautiful. That's cool. Beautiful. You know, if I ask you to close your eyes for a moment, and if I ask you to tap into that feeling of feeling that alertness, so to speak, of the dark and at night. If I ask you that feeling of that alertness or fear or expectation, that old feeling, if I ask you, did it go up, down, or stay the same?

I'd say it went down. Yeah, a little bit down or a lot down? I don't know what a little or a lot is. I would say 25 percent at this point. Yeah. I would say I'm an experiential person, so I would have to experience it to allow it to, to, to manifest deeper. Okay. But at, at an, at a conscious level, it feels like a 25 percent shift.

I feel more light. I feel more free. Yeah. So I'm going to ask you to breathe, and I'm going to ask you to bring in the feeling that you are a great person. You really are. And you know that. I mean, you know it, and you're absolutely a great person, and ask you to breathe and take that in, and feel that.

Bingo. Bingo. Great. And if I ask you Bingo. Great. So if I ask you that other feeling, that feeling of feeling that negative feeling towards the dark and all of that, you said before it went down 25%. If I ask you if you notice even more of a difference, what would you say? Yeah. I mean, it went down even further.

Just, uh, feeling that goodness in my solar plexus. Uh, yeah, I would say I isolated into the solar plexus and I can really feel it emanating. Yeah, that's exactly what I would say. So I would say this is, I would say, um, what I want to invite you to do is do exactly that is, is actually the, in other words, the very feeling of feeling afraid to sleep and needing to stay on alert is actually really connected to the feeling of feeling bad and shame.

And, and so I want to invite you to start shifting this and that's, That's what I'd recommend, um, and then, and then going from there, but I think that just because right now I'm seeing that the Bible is such a trigger, I think that shifting that and then bringing in this new feeling, um, I, I believe will be enough to actually radically shift this pattern.

Thank you. Thank you so much. Wow. Uh, I loved working with you. I think that you're really adept at going straight in. I had no idea we'd wind up where we did. None. I'm still sort of in shock. Um, but I just want to thank you for your time and for the, uh, the, the abilities that you have and for the way you did it.

And I have to say, I absolutely adore you and you're so smart and you have amazing self awareness and you're really great at articulating how you feel and, um, and you're just a beautiful, beautiful being.

All right. So, uh, let's go ahead and unpack this, you know, first and foremost, again, I just love this man. He's so sweet and wonderful and precious. I love that he is such a good man. Like I can feel it from him and he's got all these patterns of feeling like he's bad. And so on that note, there are a few different takeaways that I want to invite you to pull from this episode to really start to incorporate this shift in your life.

And the first one is inviting you to do the same thing I asked Dave to do is writing down that list of the reasons that you're a good person. I'm really starting to take that in and feel it. So that's one thing and that actually can really help start to shift your energy in a great way. Even though it's simple, it can absolutely start to do that.

So one simple thing you can do is that. All right. So the second thing is notice when we were talking about six minutes ago, he was saying, well, I don't judge anybody and I can tell from his energy. He's like, I don't judge anybody else's sexuality. I don't judge anything. You can feel it. I mean, he's genuine.

He doesn't, but he goes, but I do myself. I only judge myself. And so that's what I want to invite you to look at is if you have something that you do to yourself that you wouldn't do to others, I want to invite you to not do that. Meaning that obviously when we stop and look at the big picture of Dave, he's got this pattern of punishment and shame.

And that is the pattern. And then as we're talking, he's like, well, I don't judge other people, just myself. And notice how he was saying it like it was good. Like, oh, well it's good. It's not other people, it's just me. And you know, and also we laughed because he knew as he said it, you know, he's like, wait a sec.

So, and that's also why I interrupted him. I don't want him to, you know, his brain to go that way, but I also want to invite you to interrupt your brain. If your brain has been thinking in that way, treating yourself less than you would other people, I want to invite you to just ask yourself that question, you know, is there something in your life?

A way that you might treat yourself that's not as nice as you would treat others. And I want to invite you to consciously change that, to start really looking at what that is, and be really nice and kind to yourself, because it will, again, that can powerfully lift your energy. So there is that. And then also, number three, meditation.

If you are somebody who is having a hard time, you know, having feelings of guilt or feeling bad towards your sexuality and all of that, and, and that's going on for you, I get that. You know, what's, what's actually really funny is at the end of the session with Dave, so we had finished the recording and we went to go hang up and I said, you know, it's, it's just funny, you know, I, I just, I know so well, I've been through what you've been through.

He had no idea. That I'm gay. He had none at all. And so it was funny because Then you know, I had went through the same thing in my own life and so much so I mean I came out when I was like 18 years old and I thought that Everybody was gonna hate me I thought my mom was gonna hate me and my siblings and that my family was going to abandon me And, it was a horrible, horrible feeling.

I mean, when you really feel that way, it's like, it's, it's a crazy feeling. You've, like, there's never a time in my life when I've felt like, before, like, you have this thing, this secret inside you that you know, and you feel like everybody is going to hate you for it. It's the craziest feeling. And it sucks, you know?

And you know, I did, at the age of 18, I had the courage to come out. But. It didn't feel very good. And so on that note, if you are somebody who is struggling with your sexuality, I want to invite you. To, to really come to peace with it in terms to, to feel really good about it and not partially not burying it, but to decide and get your mind on board with it all of the way, you know, just to, to let it go completely because there are, people are always going to have different views on everything.

And, and, and so that's one thing. And the second thing is if you know somebody who is going through that. Uh, time and, uh, you know, not just allowing them to be exactly who they are. You know, one of the things that I love about our world, even about cities, I love big cities and some people go, well, you're so tuned into energy.

How can you like cities? Isn't that really chaotic? And to me, it's not, it's not chaotic because I love the uniqueness of each person, each being, getting to be and do exactly. just being themselves. I love the culture and, and it's just beautiful. And so I think that, you know, finding the beauty even in that, which is so much different than you or me or, you know, it just, it's a beautiful thing.

So I want to invite you to be that. And, you know, actually one more insight and it's this, it's that if you are somebody who does have that internal judger, who is judging people, who's, you know, who's in that energy. I want to invite you to change that. And the reason for that is because if you're judging others, you know, for anything, for sexuality, but also for, you know, what it is that they do or that they're lesser, not as good as you, or that they do this or that, you know, judgment also affects your energy, affects your success.

I have worked with people before who had so many judgments that actually helping them to clear their judgments, help them to increase their own success. And so it's so interesting how energy works, but the more negativity you hold onto for any reason, whether it's pointing at somebody else or yourself, either way, it affects you so much more than people realize.

And so that said guys, It has been such a pleasure connecting with you, and I absolutely adore you. And please do hit the share button on this episode if you feel like you know somebody who needs to hear it, or it can help somebody. Please do. You know, the more empowered and happy and healthy that every single person is in our world, the better this world will be for all of us, no matter how unique and different we all are.

We all, you know, at our core, uh, we're this spiritual energy beings that are all united through that energy. And so coming from a place of love and connectedness and, um, and lifting the energy collective is, uh, is a beautiful place to be. So on that note, I look forward to connecting with you on the next episode and I wish you a most wonderful, incredible day.

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