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Welcome to Heal Yourself, Change Your Life. My name is Brandy Gillmore, and after recovering from my own life changing injury, it's become my mission to share with others the same discoveries I made that changed my health and my entire life. Our minds are truly incredible. The placebo is proof of this.

Each week, I will take this simple awareness to a whole new level. I will even coach live callers to free themselves of physical pain using only their mind. And then I'll provide you with a combination of practical and spiritual insights that you can use to master your mind, your emotions, and your energy to help you heal your health, yourself, and your life.

Let's begin.

Hello and welcome. It is so wonderful to connect with you. I just love that you are here, continuing to expand your mind, your energy, your consciousness, your healing. I just love it. And I just love today's episode. You know, each episode has its own unique insights and perspective and awareness is just that.

Can help you to create a pivot in your life. And that is so true from today's episode. You know, one of the insights that I love about this is that. You know, it's so common for people in our world to get frustrated, you know, for us to look around and maybe be frustrated about injustices or things that aren't right or aren't fair.

And a lot of times what happens is people will talk about these injustices. They talk about them, they get upset about them. The problem is Is that of course, that can affect your health, it can affect your life, and what can happen is people can have a topic that pisses them off, that's going on in the world, and it's an injustice, and it's something that's not fair, but the more they stew on it and are furious about it and talk about it, it really does impact our health, our life, our happiness.

And of course, I'm not saying. Don't do anything like, of course, there are things that we can do and be to make that change, but sitting there and stewing on things can and does affect our health. And that's part of where we're going today with our beautiful volunteer, Nicole. Now there are other really powerful insights and twists as well.

So I just, I love this episode for so many different reasons. Also because the topic of having hope and even losing hope and feeling stuck and getting unstuck, you know, there's just a lot of really great Insights. And so that's where we're going today. Now, if you recall last week's episode, we started working with Nicole.

So technically what happens is that if I do a session and it lasts an hour long, then I break it into pieces to make sure that it's not so much all at once and. That I can still provide you with insights as we go. And so this is part two of my session with Nicole. Now, as you recall, on the first part of the session last week, we were delving into her story where she's got physical pain and also she works in a pharmaceutical industry.

And she's got a lot of frustration about testing on pets and she's got a lot of different emotions going on that are impacting her. Now, of course, it goes beyond that. It goes into patterns and hope and all kinds of. Things in our world that impact you that you may not even realize are impacting you or creating a spiral or creating hopelessness or stuckness or whatnot.

And so that's where we're going today. So again, I just love this episode and I love our volunteer, Nicole. She's such a sweetheart and, uh, and that's where we're going. So let's go ahead and dive in with our beautiful volunteer, Nicole. Here we go.

So I want you to notice there's a part of you that feels like. You're right, or you're good if you judge others. Does that make sense? Like if I said, Oh, everybody else is doing this and this and this, and I don't agree with it, and it makes me feel like I'm the good person or I'm right. Does that make sense?

Yes, and no, not so much that I want to be right, the things when I see something that I don't agree with or think is wrong, and yes, I do judge them, but because I think it's wrong, not because I have to feel right. I would rather, I would rather be wrong than right, and this thing wouldn't be there, you know.

Uh huh, but I want to ask you to take it a step further. Okay, so watch this. Let's say that your mind's automatic response was instead said, hey, what's happening in the world towards animals and animal testing isn't right, and you didn't judge at all. You said, I'm not gonna sit here and judge. You said instead, what can I do to make a difference?

How can I stand up and give a voice to those animals that don't have a voice? And so you didn't spend any time judging or feeling bad or feeling guilty, but you started doing that. And who knows, what if you even started speaking about that and you said, Hey, I used to work in pharmaceuticals and, or I did blah, blah, blah, or whatever.

And I felt bad because all of the testing that was going on on animals, and it made me want to do something to make a difference to whatever it is. And I wanted to change this and this and this. And you started working towards that, towards setting up what was a good thing. Does that make sense? It makes sense, but, um, I know that, uh, I don't know.

I'm at least right now, I'm too weak to do that. Otherwise I would, or I wouldn't, you know, I wouldn't work there. But wait a sec, I hear you. Okay. So I'm going to ask you to breathe. And this is what I'm saying to you is I'm saying that. What would it feel like to be a non judgment? Okay. And that let's say your mind did not work in a place of judgment.

It just wasn't in a place of judgment that if you saw something that wasn't Right, they, you instead started seeing with solutions. You instead started seeing what you could do or what would be great or, or whatnot, or you saw with through the eyes of compassion, because if you think about it for a moment, how do I put it?

Um, I understand what you mean. All the judging clouds. whatever, my vision or to see solutions or better ways because all I, the thing I do feel is either judgment or it's really deep hurt. Okay. I would also say, okay, so here we go. We're going to think bigger for a second. Okay. Yes. Can you give me your dad's initial?

H F. Okay. And can you give me your mom's initial? Her, um, her maiden name or. Any initial. It's also, it's also H, also H. There we go. Thank you. Okay. So if I ask you how frustrated you felt about your mom buying you things or getting things as a child, what would you say? Not at all. If I ask you how much you felt like your mother would just give to you and it was safe to receive from her, how much would you say that is?

Well, like 100%. And so you never felt guilty about it? No, not when I was young. When I was older, it's a little different. Tell me more. Um, I don't know. I guess when you when you get older and You received something, uh, I don't know, I know I'm still her child or when I was younger, um, of course, as a mom, you want to give, but sometimes, um, I liked it, but there was always, not always, but sometimes a little, yeah, guilt that I felt, it wasn't huge, but it was there.

Bingo. And by the way, how many siblings did you have? One, one sister. And if I ask you, by the way, how much you felt selfish? I'm not sure if I really felt it as a, as a child. I don't think I felt selfish, but. Okay. You ready? I'll share what I'm seeing. Okay. So, um, the pattern of feeling, um. Number one, let's see, uh, what I see pissed off about money, uh, comes in.

I see it at first at age six. Okay. So I see age six and I see it having to do, bing it, with your mom of not buying you something that you wanted. Um, and then I also see a feeling of, uh, like her calling you, uh, like you, like selfish, like there was a feeling of feeling selfish that I see comes in at age.

Uh, age eight. Okay. So I see both of those feelings. You, so you don't see those at all? You're not familiar with those? Yes, yes, yes, yes, yes. I, yes, I, um, I don't know the situations, but I know that my mom sometimes said that, that when you had a desire, not for things, or even if something that you wanted to do in life, um, and you wanted to go your way, that sometimes this was, I To her, or she said that it's kind of selfish.

Yeah. True. Okay. So what I would say is this, is that that's, so that's what I see. I see a feeling of wanting things. Um, and then feeling like sometimes, sometimes your mom told you no, and then you felt selfish and then you felt like you couldn't have it. So there's a strong feeling of feeling like you couldn't have it.

And so if you think about it for a moment. You mentioned in the very beginning where you mentioned that you're trying to figure out the line of where it is because sometimes that other people have things and then you want it but you realize you can't have it and you're trying to figure out that balance.

Does that make sense? Yes. So What you can see is you can see your patterns are here. Now, what I wanted to do is I wanted to give you a way to move it forward first. And that's because it's hard to let go of something if we really can't move it forward also. And so part of what is going to be important to move it forward, uh, is there is a lot of judgment of people.

And so I love that you have that awareness and there is, and so that's what shifted away the pain is. Having to do with that. And then also, um, a feeling of feeling, like you said, of having to do jobs that you don't want to do, but having to work, but you don't want like that feeling of frustration and kind of, in some ways, kind of, um, being mad or hating money.

Uh, can you see that? Yes. Hating having to do something I don't like for money. Yeah. Yeah. Okay. So now if somebody said all relationships are abusive, is that correct? No. If they said all relationships are all mean and, uh, unloving, would you say that's correct? No. So why is your relationship with money a certain way?

Why is your relationship? So if you think about your relationship with money, your relationship with money says, I always have to do things I don't like, and I feel resentment towards it. And I'm mad about it because I don't want to have to do this, but I have to do this. And I don't like it and now I feel selfish because of it, but I don't like it, but I have to.

Can you see that? Yes. Yes. Story of my life. Bingo. So I'm gonna ask you to breathe. So go back to there. That's the story of your life, right? Now when you stop and think about the awareness that you're in control of the story of your life, do you want to skip over the awareness of your story of your life or do you actually want to change the story of your life?

Yes, I do. If I really think I could. Yeah. Ah, great. So I'm going to ask you to Yes. Ah, I get it. Another one. There you go. There you go. Another box opened. Yeah, I know. Uh huh. Okay. So I want you to notice that you're sucked into the moment and the frustrations of what is, and it, quote unquote, it has been the story of your life, right?

Mm hmm. Yeah. So when do you want to change that? I do want to change it, but to tell you the truth, um, I'm not sure I, I don't want to be dramatic and say I've given up hope, but it's kind of like that. It's like, I tried, I tried, I tried. I felt, you know, it didn't work. I fell back into the old way. I tried again.

You know? Yeah. I have a question. So you would say that you've already changed your patterns, like you already changed your pattern towards judging others. You already changed your pattern towards money, towards feeling selfish and towards feeling like you can't have what you want, but you've already changed those patterns and then it didn't work?

No, probably not. It's like bouncing back and forth.

All right. So let's go ahead and pause it just for a quick moment. You know, first and foremost, I love her self awareness and I love her self honesty and just that feeling of feeling like. You know, being aware that you feel like you've lost hope to be able to get out of a situation. But I want to really point out that that is normal for a lot of people.

A lot of times people feel like they're stuck. You know, it's like the feeling of feeling stuck between a rock and a hard place. Like there is no way out. And I felt that same way. And I see people who feel that way. All of the time, whether their life situation has to do with work or their relationship or children or whatever it is.

I see that all of the time. And I just really want to emphasize that the more you change on the inside, the more it opens up possibility. And I know that sounds really woo, but I've lived it. I've been there. I've seen others who've Lived it. And the best way I can describe it is like this, is that if you imagine being 10 feet in a hole and you look around for the solution, you can't see it.

It's like you're blocked in every single direction. However, if you lift yourself out of it, so if you keep lifting and lifting and lifting and lifting, it's like you lift yourself. Out of it, and then you're able to see more opportunity, more solutions. And so it's about unblocking your brain, or even that's another way to put it is that if you think about another example that I use all the time is writer's block.

You know, if a person has writer's block and they can't. Think of what to write. And then they remove that block. All of a sudden, everything's flowing. And the same is true in life as we align to what it is that we're wanting, or we clear blocks or stress or negativity or whatever it is, you know, just even negative programming or programming.

That's not. Serving what it is that we're wanting. But the more we rewire our minds, the more it really does open up to the situations, the circumstances, and also the thoughts and ideas that come through or even the motivation. And so what happens is then you end up having this idea that you didn't have before, or suddenly having an opportunity that wasn't there before, and then you take action on it and it's just, it, it opens the door.

And so my point is, is that if you're feeling stuck. I get it. I have been there. I lived it in a really bad way. And there are many years I didn't want to live. And what's interesting, because I've always been an optimistic person, is even at the time when I didn't want to live, there was a part of me that still identified as being an optimistic person.

Like I would have told you, I'm not depressed. And I did say this many times. I'm not depressed. I have a problem. I have an insurmountable problem that I cannot overcome, like, and I cannot live my life like this. And so point being is that we can get stuck in places where we feel like we have a challenge that we cannot overcome or get out of.

And it's a horrible feeling, but the solution is on the inside. And I'm not saying this from a woo woo place and we could call it woo woo. We can call it whatever you want, but I'm saying it from a place of Uh, things do change and it's not like all of a sudden everything you want suddenly shows up in your living room, you know?

This isn't a Santa Claus story where everything just shows up under the Christmas tree, though that's great, but opportunity or ideas happen that you take action on them and then you take action on another and an action on another and before you realize it, you followed the breadcrumbs to a different location and that's exactly what happened with me.

I just As I really rewired my mind, really changed, really lifted, really understood how to work with my mind, it became pivotal. And it was like one breadcrumb after another. And the next thing I know, my life has changed, you know, just incredible. And so just. Point being is that if you're in a place of not having hope or a feeling stuck in some area, I want to invite you to genuinely embrace change.

To know that it's not stuck because it's easy to feel like, Oh, I'm stuck. Like I, I wish I could communicate just how much I get this. I've lived it. That when we create real change, not fake change, not fairy dust, not like, well, let's just visualize what we want. It's going to show up. No, I'm talking about real change.

So, you know, just depth of change. So yes, visualizing is great. It's a great start, but really understanding what is affecting you and being willing to genuinely change that is so important and. As we'll talk about some of these things that they trigger you, you can go into a spiral. And so that's part of where we're going as we step back in with beautiful Nicole.

Here we go.

So if you'll hear me, of course, use the example all the time. You know, the, the woman who unfortunately has abusive father leads him, finds it abusive boyfriend, boss, spouse, et cetera, et cetera. That pattern continues, right? Now, question. If she changed her pattern. If she really, really healed, and we can all have compassion for her, but we can't fix it for her unless she wants to change.

But if she changed, you know, and I get there's a challenge in that, but if she changes that pattern, would you expect her life circumstances to change? Yes. Okay, so if you change your pattern, would you expect your life circumstances to change? I would hope so. Great. So if I ask you, what do you think the most important pattern is that I'm asking you to change right now?

The first and most important that I'm asking you to change? Judging. The judging, because the judging is coming back to you as then feeling guilty and judging yourself and then feeling the guilt because when you're doing it to others, you're doing it to yourself. So, imagine if I told you that somebody's trying to live their best life, meanwhile beating themselves up and kicking their own butt, how successful do you think they're going to be?

Yeah, not very much. So basically what I'm saying to you is essentially, I'm saying, Hey, can you stop judging others because it's making you kick your own butt? And if you could stop doing that, wow, it would be so much easier. So what I was trying to say about the, the car example of the spare tire is that maybe it's a place where you just have compassion and you say, okay, look it, this isn't the perfect solution, but let me stop criticizing everybody.

Let me just stop for a moment and then I can focus on what the solution is. Does that make sense? Yes, but I don't see the fine line between, I mean, judging. Yeah, so I'm gonna ask you to breathe and if I ask you how much your mom would tell you that you would get really upset if you didn't get your way or exactly what you wanted as a kid, what would you say?

I don't think very much. I didn't get upset. Okay, so this is where I'm going. If I ask you to close your eyes. And I want you to notice the part of you who feels like you can't have what you want. Zero to ten, how much can you find that feeling? Fifteen. Exactly. So that's my point, is that if you're operating from that consciousness, so watch this.

Let's say somebody has a pattern that says that they can't ever have what they want. Right? Now, if you set them in the middle of everything they ever wanted, what do you think the chances are that they sabotage it? I want to say zero, but it's probably ten. They won't see it. They won't see exactly. So my point is is that where I'm saying to you, I want you to go inside and change the picture.

To go inside and change. Okay. And you're saying, but I've tried all these external situations. And I'm saying, I hear you. I get, I understand. Okay. So let's say that you're really, really, really, really, really, really in love with somebody. How much does your mind keep thinking about everything you love about that person?

Well, a lot. A lot. Now, if you try to stop thinking about that person, how easy is it to just stop thinking about that person? Not easy at all. Okay. Now, if you're really, really pissed off at somebody, You're really, really pissed off. How much do you find your mind maybe stewing on the problem or fault finding in them?

What would you say? Well, same thing. Very much. Exactly. Right? So your emotions are going to hold you in a certain consciousness. So what I'm saying is, so you have a very strong feeling like you don't get what it is that you want, right? Right. So what are you going to see in life obstacles? Uh huh obstacles and things now notice for a moment If I ask you to see the other part where there's a part of you who feels like you do get what you want And there's a part of you who actually feels like like you are okay financially and that you do get some things and that You do have some great things.

Can you see that part too? Yes, okay, and then you feel selfish for wanting more. Can you see that part? Yes. So you see the cycle that you're I think something bad happens, you know, it's like, oh my God, don't get too greedy, something bad will happen. You get, you know Yes, but, but, watch this, ready? But ready?

Watch this. I'm asking you to close your eyes, and don't think, just be present with me. If I ask you how many times you have judged others for being greedy, what would you say? Yeah, well, probably. So if I check the level of judgment for greedy, 0 to 10 is like a 50, 000, okay? Which is then why you feel like if you wanted more, it would be quote unquote greedy.

That make sense? Mm hmm. It's interesting. It is. Now you can see why I said the judgment piece, you're gonna want to stop that because it's out. Thanks. Is it then feeling guilt and then you feel selfish and then you feel bad because then you're telling other people are selfish and then other people shouldn't want this and oh by the way they're greedy and it's shutting down the directions that you could go so it's kind of like this as if I said oh my gosh everybody who wears a black blazer is is horrible and then I say oh I want to get a black blazer and you see how there would be a subconscious part that would say well wait a second we have a bunch of negativity linked up to that.

Can you see that? Yes. What's not so present with me is really, do I really think that a lot of people are greedy? I'm trying to find this feeling because of course I do sometimes, of course, I don't want to deny that, but I do admire people that really know what they want in life and go for it. I really do admire these people.

Okay, so I have a question. If I ask you how much you feel like pharmaceutical company is greedy, what would you say? Zero to ten. The pharmaceutical industry. Probably a nine. Yeah, yeah, yeah. Probably a nine. It's a good thing you're never around pharmaceuticals, though, because otherwise that pattern would trigger a lot for you.

Oh, wait. You think? Yeah. Oh. So you see where it's coming back to the judgments. You see what I'm talking about, right? Yeah. It creates this pressure, you know, that I have to leave that field of work, you know, I, yeah. Bingo. So now. Exactly, and now I want you to go back to the very beginning, what we were talking about, as I want you to notice this feeling of pressure, of feeling like you needed to, the, the financial stress, this, that, the other, and the judgment towards pharmaceuticals, and notice your pain went away, so you understand why your pain did that, okay?

So, remember when I said good things about the pharmaceuticals, that it wasn't perfect. But that maybe it does help people in a situation and that you don't have to judge them and your pain went away. Because part of what's also happening is I want you to notice how there's a lot of pressure that you need to leave it.

You can see that, right? Yeah, pressure is a big thing in me. Yeah. About all kinds of stuff. Yeah. So, so what I'm going to ask you to do. So when I, when we met earlier about not judging, I'm not saying look at the pharmaceutical industry, like it's perfect. I'm not saying that at all. By the way, was there a time when I would have said, Oh my gosh, the horrible pharmaceutical industry, blah, blah, blah.

Yeah. Because there was a point in time. When I was upset with them and I was mad at them because I was on medications that were blah, blah, blah, blah, blah. Yes, absolutely. But I don't have that anymore. I don't, because I changed me. I healed me. What I can see is I can see what the truth of it. Do I think it's perfect?

No. Do I think that if somebody was having a heart attack? And I would say, you know, don't take any medication for it. Don't do that. No, I would say, okay, do that. But then heal yourself. If say, if I said, oh, well, somebody's got a blood sugar level of 500. Would I say, don't take anything? No, I'd probably say take something and also heal yourself.

So it's just being grounded in what's real and not being emotionally reactive to things because I don't have that there. Does that make sense? Yes, absolutely. Absolutely. Now, was there a time that I did have it there? Yes, that's what's true. So I was on, you, are you familiar with Vioxx? Now, what is that?

Like a pain reliever? Vioxx, it's like an anti inflammatory, but it was taken off the market sometime during my injury. So I was on it. And then, Uh, and then my doctors wouldn't tell me, they just, I just got a call. It was, they were like, well, just, why don't you just stop taking your medicaid? They said, just stop taking that one.

And I was like, but I just bought it. I have a whole one left. And they're like, no, just, just discontinue it. We'll get you something else. And I wanted to know why. But nobody would tell me why. And then like I started looking it up and I was like, Oh, well, there's it. There was articles that says people are dying from Vioxx.

I was like, okay, well now I at least know why, but nobody would tell me. And I was like, just, but was I upset at the period of time? I was, but it, it led on a spiral where it led to a whole interest, a whole chain of event. It actually. Spiraling is exactly what you say. The spiraling is what I feel. It's like really huge with things.

It's one thing. It's that it's this and that and it's spirals and spirals, you know, okay, but actually, can I tell you you want to? Okay. So I was I would. Okay. This is my transparency. My truth is this is I was trying to keep it about. You sorry I didn't know no so I so I didn't share the spiral, but I spiraled in a different way now My spiral looks like this after being told that I needed to discontinue Vioxx right after that I was afraid to take any medications and I still had of course my daily medications But then I went in for a nerve ablation shortly afterwards and when I went into a nerve ablation Usually do like a shot of Demerol like they do shot of morphine or Demerol.

I can't remember what it was and They do one before and then afterwards they do that, you know, after they burn the nerve ending off. And I told them, I said, I want to try to do it without a bunch of extra medication, because I didn't trust anything at that point. I said to them, they went to go give me the, the medication.

I said, no, I'm going to try to do it without it. And Then about, I don't know, 10 minutes later, 15 minutes, I don't know how much longer it was later, I was laying there just sweating in so much pain, just my nerves were so, like, I just, I don't know, I had this feeling, and keeping in mind that I also had CRPS at the time, and so I just, I don't know, I was in so much pain.

And I said to the nurse, I said, okay, I said, no, I want the medication. And she said to me, No, you said no. And I was like, no, no, no. Just I, I I'm in so much pain, I need it, please. And she said, no. And I mean, the, the good thing was is I, I said, well, I just wanna leave. And she goes, well, you can't leave the hospital until you've, you use the restroom, so you have to be able to urinate before they'll let you leave after procedure.

So then I was sitting, I, I was just, I mean, laying in the hospital bed I was. So upset. And I, of course I was on pill morphine at the time. So then I just took one of those and, and it finally kicked in. And then I left the hospital and I thought to myself from that, never again, is somebody going to have that much power over me and what I do and how I have to figure this out, I have to.

So my spiral was a sense of determination that said, I have to, I cannot, I can't do this anymore. I can't be this. This isn't who I am. How do I figure this out? That was my spiral. That's good. You didn't give up. I mean, you know. No, I was like, I have to. So, so when I said I was, so I was shortcutting it to, to keep it focused on where you're going, but that's the way that I spiraled into a place of this said, I have to figure this out.

So to this day, I mean, there is a time when I was very pissed off at that nurse. Like, are you kidding me? Especially like, I was never somebody who was. You know, I didn't want the medication, even when it came to taking myself off the medication. It just, all these things. Anyways, so my point being is that, and I never, thank God, I never got addicted to the medication.

It wasn't an issue. All of that. Very easy to get off of it for me. My point is, is that we, even when we go back to, and I said earlier, and I said, well, let it allow you to focus on where you do want to do instead of being stuck in the negative spiral. So you and I spiral two different ways. Does that make sense?

And what I'm asking you to do is spiral towards the positive.

All right. So let's go ahead and pause the session right here for a moment. You know, first and foremost, I make it sound like I did it perfect here and I did not, so I just want to, for the record. Tell you, I am not perfect. I did not do any of this perfectly at all. And I'm not trying to make myself sound like I did it perfectly either.

Instead, what I was trying to do is share with her the part of it that I did right. Because obviously I got here, I did something right, but I did not do everything right. So when I said, well, I spiraled into determination, that is where I ended up. That's not necessarily. All of the story. And by the way, I mean, let's be honest, I was injured for years.

I could go on and on about all kinds of stories during that time. You know, when I mentioned that this whole thing caused a spiral, it did with the Vioxx and all of that. It did. And I went through this period that I was so afraid to see doctors. Did I like cancel the appointment? Stopped going. I mean, and.

To be impeccable with my words, I was also on heavy medication at the time, which required a triplicate form. If you're not familiar with what that is, it's basically like a special carbon copy type of prescription form for strong medications. And I don't even know if they still use them or if the system has changed to all electronic because that was, you know, back in, I think 2008, 2009, when I filled my last prescription.

So I don't even know if they're still doing it the same way anymore. I mean, considering that was 14, 15 years ago now. So I don't even know if they're doing it the same way or not. So it could be completely different by now. But my point being is just being impeccable with my words is that I did still go in and get the medication of what I needed because I had to go in to get.

The refills for my medication. But other than that, I was so terrified of seeing doctors that I went into this huge spiral. I stopped going. I didn't want to see anybody. And I started researching all of this stuff about medical errors and I mean, and medications and prescriptions. And I mean, it, it was not the best spiral.

I did go into not a great place also. So I went. down this spiral. And then I read information that said allopathic medicine or prescriptions is like the third leading cause of death. Then I started, you know, just going into this whole spiral. And by the way, I had been in other spirals at the same time.

You know, terrified of pesticides or not breathing perfect air that was perfectly clean, or even I was researching the July effect. And if you're not familiar with that, it is, it's something, I don't know if it's scientifically proven or not. Some people say it is, some people say it's not, but basically it is said that when med school finishes in July, that there is an uptick, there's an increased number of.

Medical errors and deaths in the month of July. Now, again, to be clear, I don't know based on numbers if that's actually true or not. Some people say it is, some people say it's not. And whenever I share data, I definitely want to share information with you that is solid. So I don't know either way. But my point being is that I went down a whole bunch of spirals, and I was not perfect, but one of the positive spirals was a feeling of determination that said, I'm going to figure this out.

I'm, and, and just more determined than ever. And by the way, on all of this stuff, I can tell you, I probably succeeded at healing myself because I probably failed more than anybody at all of this. I mean, I did a, of things. And I did a ton of things that did not work, but I kept going and I got very, very determined.

And I started to understand what it was and how it worked. And it just, the level of determination and focus and drive. To do this was just off the charts. And so my point being is that if it ever sounds like I'm trying to portray myself as being perfect in any way, or that I worked through my injury and all of that in a perfect way, that is definitely not the case.

It's just very simply that I'm trying to share with you the things that I did manage to do, right? So you can learn from those and use whatever. You can apply in your own life. All right. So that said, let's go ahead and dive back in with our beautiful volunteer, Nicole. Here we go.

Now, of course, it requires you to change patterns because it's not like I'm saying to you, roll up your sleeves and push through it. As we both know, you've done that before. I did that plenty of times. It was about creating real change. Does that make sense? Yes. Okay. So I'm going to ask you to breathe. And by the way, there was a time that I was really, really pissed off at that nurse.

And now if I could, I would say thank you. I would say, you know what? Yes, it didn't feel optimal at the time. Thank you. Any of my doctors, like anybody. And I had a great, I had a lot of really caring, wonderful doctors. So I don't even want to say anything negative about any one of them. Where I was and what they were capable of.

It supported me through that. They were all typically very nice to me. And there were also a lot of mishaps that I experienced, all kinds of things, you know, so it just, it just is what it is. So, uh, so I'm going to ask you to breathe and I'm going to ask you, are you willing to change? Are you willing to change instead of feeling you can't, I'm going to ask you to breathe and I'm going to ask you just for a moment to take in the difference.

Of the way you spiraled compared to the way I spiraled. And I want you to think about that for a moment. And what I'm asking you to do is I'm asking you to change. And I'm not saying you need to change your job. I'm not saying you need to change your situation or your circumstances. Right now, I'm saying what you want to do is you want to stop beating yourself up and stop judging others.

How does that feel to you? Like, like you gave me permission to be lighter, you know? Yeah. Bingo. So I'm going to ask you to breathe. And on that note, if we could expand it. What if you had permission to love yourself even more and to allow yourself to have, and then it's not selfish, but you could give yourself permission to have.

What would that look like?

All right, so let's go ahead and pause the session right here because suddenly the entire conversation takes a huge leap towards self love and Beating oneself up and it, we, her and I start laughing, but also there's a lot of heartfelt pieces to it. So it kind of takes a bit of a twist in the direction that we're going, which was beautiful.

And it really, and so we're going to cover that part on the next part. So we're going to go part three on this one, because I also want to give you a moment to digest where we are right now. And if there is an area that you feel stuck in life, I want to invite you to not keep feeling frustrated or stuck or hopeless or pissed or whatever it is, but I want to invite you to at least start getting a vision about it.

Or to start being willing to shift it, to being willing to change it. Now, there is a state of mind that I call detached observation, where we're able to observe the problem without being triggered by it, where you say, okay, look, I'm no longer going to be pissed off and upset and frustrated by this at all.

Instead, I'm just going to observe that it is a problem. And I get it and I'm not going to be triggered and, and really just kind of getting yourself into that state. And then I want to invite you to think about what it would look like if it wasn't. There, if you didn't have the problem and being willing to change.

Now, is this the answer for everything? No, probably not. However, what can happen is this, is if you stop getting stuck into the negative or the hurt or the trigger or etc, etc, it can be helpful to So it can help improve the situation. Not only that, but it can help you to start having increased clarity or new ideas or perspectives that can help you to change the situation or to operate better through it, or at least not to continue to fuel it by feeling the frustration and the upset, which of course can then continue to.

Stress your health, your body, everything in life. And so that's the takeaway that I want to invite you to look at from this episode is exactly that is think of an area where you feel stuck or frustrated, or you're feeling hopeless towards, and instead of feeling that way, decide just one thing that you're willing to either change or lift or think about.

in a new way. And I do want to say really quickly, sometimes what people will do in this, in a spiritual mind, what they will say is they'll start to give love to the problem. Now I want to invite you not to do that. We don't want to love the problem because you don't want to train your that you want the problem either.

So I'm not saying to do that. I'm simply saying that you'll want to stop being triggered or upset or fueling the problem or believing in the feeling that it is hopeless, but instead being willing to observe that, okay. It is a problem, but it could change. It could change and being willing to not be so triggered by it.

And by the way, another way to think about it is like this is, you know, imagine that a friend of yours or somebody, you know, they come in and they're upset about something, you know, they just had an argument or upset with their boss or whatever it is. So they're really, really, really upset. Now, if you try to reason with them in that moment, how's it going to go?

Well, typically not so well. Typically they can't hear you or they're upset, or they might even get mad at you because they're triggered and upset. However, if they are calm and they relax and they calm down. Typically, it's easier to have a more rational conversation where they might have insight and perspective to navigate it differently.

And so that's basically what I'm saying is exactly that, is to not fuel the problems or be upset by them or injustices or frustrations, but instead to allow yourself not to be so upset by them that. You also start empowering yourself to have more solutions. Now, I want to be very clear that I'm not saying stress and strain to find the answer, though thinking about it and analyzing it might help.

Okay, so that might be. Or, of course, starting to really reprogram your mind, to think in a different way, to feel in a different way, in which case you could even start Visualize getting a vision for what it is that where your life is changing and start fueling that. And so of course, each situation is different, but I just want to invite you to look at this in your life.

And I guess if I was going to wrap this all in one theme, I would say, don't feel hopeless. Like there's always a way and you'll be surprised. And I've been there and, and I want to invite you to experience that, to begin shifting. Any part of your life that feels stuck. All right. So those are the insights from today's episode.

And of course, we're going to continue on with part three with Nicole on next week's episode where she, she's just hilarious. She's so sweet and lovely and wonderful. And that's where we're going next week. In the meantime, I want to invite you to follow through with today's episode. And I want to ask you, as always, please do make a point to hit the share button on this episode.

You know, share it with somebody you love, somebody you care about, or somebody you don't even know, because the more happy and healthy and empowered that every single person is in the world. The better this world is for all of us. And so please do make a point to hit the share button and please do make a point to have a most wonderful, fantastic, loving rest of your day.

And I look forward to connecting with you on the next episode. We'll see you there.

Thank you for listening to Heal Yourself, Change Your Life. All of the time, people reach out and say how much these episodes have given them hope or touch their heart or help them stay positive in hard times, or even woken them up to a completely new level of awareness. Of how amazing we all really are.

If today's episode touched your heart or expanded your mind in any way, please do me a favor and be sure to share it with those you care about, or those, you know, who really need it. As more and more people become empowered, it really will change our world for the better. That is the point and the power of these demonstrations is to create a radical shift in our world consciousness by showing everyone.

What we are all capable of. And of course each volunteer will really need to follow through to reinforce their programming, to maintain their results. But the point is for you to see that you really can create rapid results in your health and your life if you really understand how to use your mind. You are incredible.

And I do wanna be clear though, that most people will not get results this fast on their own. I make it look very easy because of the discoveries that I made. You'll want to remember that there's so much more going on in our minds at a deeper level than people realize. That said, if you want to send me any questions or comments, come visit me on my website at brandygillmore.com/podcast. And if you're currently experiencing physical pain and would like to be a volunteer on the show, you can sign up there as well. Please remember, if you do have any health issues, you won't want to avoid your doctors. Instead, you'll want to continue seeing them and make it your goal to blow their minds with what you're capable of with your mind.

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