What happens when your mind turns against you after loss — and never lets go?
In this deeply moving episode of Heal Yourself, Change Your Life®, Brandy Gillmore reflects on a session with Fer, a loving and thoughtful volunteer living with multiple chronic conditions, including Crohn’s disease, immune dysregulation, and severe sensitivities, while also carrying years of intense self-punishment and emotional pain.
In this episode, Brandy explores how unresolved grief and self-directed anger can become deeply embedded in the subconscious mind. Rather than the trauma itself, it is the ongoing patterns of self-attack, harsh self-judgment, and feeling like a “bad person” that continue to impact both emotional well-being and the body’s ability to heal.
During the session, Brandy highlights how shifting these internal patterns — allowing the mind to become supportive instead of punishing — can create profound change, not only emotionally, but physically as well. The episode offers powerful insight into how healing often requires addressing the deeper ways we relate to ourselves after loss.
This episode invites reflection on how self-kindness, compassion, and subconscious rewiring can open the door to true healing and transformation.
As always, if you’d like to listen to the full live self-healing session where Brandy works directly with the volunteer—or if you’d like a deeper understanding of mind-body healing—you’ll find the links below in the resources. And if this episode touched your heart or opened your mind, please take a moment to hit the share button and share it with someone you love.
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Welcome to Heal Yourself. Change Your Life. I’m Brandy Gillmore and what I’m most known for is helping people to create radical transformations and even demonstrating the power of the mind and self-healing under medical equipment so you can see the results and my work has even been published in a medical journal because it’s truly incredible what we are all capable of when we understand our own minds at a deeper level.
So whether you’re new to this work or you’ve been studying the power of the mind for many years. I love that you are here. I love that we’re on this incredible journey together, and I look forward to sharing breakthrough information with you. That said, on this podcast, I’ll share two types of episodes.
First, self-healing episodes, where I share key insights from working with live volunteers. And the second type are where I answer questions from the audience. That said, if you’d like to volunteer or submit a question, come visit me at BrandyGillmore.com. On that note, let’s dive in.
Hello and happy, beautiful day to you. I want to add in a quick but important note to make this podcast very easy to navigate because today’s episode has a special format. Today I worked with a live volunteer. As you probably know, there are a lot of people who are now using AI to modify information online.
For that reason, we have taken an extra step to help protect our beautiful volunteer and the integrity of this work to help keep the information from being modified. And we actually love how this turned out because it provides you with even more information. This is how it works. On today’s episode, you’ll hear an overview of the person that I worked with, and I will provide you with simple but powerful breakthrough insights that helped our volunteer begin making a radical shift.
Then at the end of this short breakthrough episode, if you are ready for a deep dive, you can click in the show notes to gain access to the actual self-healing session where I worked directly with the live volunteer. This enables us to help protect the information online from being modified. While still continuing to provide you with powerful information to help bridge the gap between science and spirituality and personal empowerment, because it’s truly incredible what you are capable of when you learn to understand your mind at a deeper level.
That said, let’s dive into the simple but powerful insights that came from working with today’s volunteer. Here we go.
All right, so diving into today’s episode, there are just so many things that I loved about today’s episode and just the insights, the shift, our beautiful volunteer, just every episode I love because it highlights a different aspect of mind body healing, of something that can be stuck, that can really affect the physical body and keep the body from really healing itself. And of course, that’s where we’re going on today’s episode. Now, I worked with a beautiful volunteer. Her name is Fer or Fernanda, but she goes by Fer and just a beautiful being. Unfortunately, she had a whole list of diagnosis from Crohn’s Disease and also MCAS, so mast cell activation syndrome, immune dysregulation, mold exposure and toxicity, chemical sensitivity, EMF sensitivity, she just had a whole host of different things going on with gut issues and colon inflammation and all kinds of issues going on and just felt stuck.
And as I was working with her, you could just feel her sense of heart connection towards people, towards her husband, towards her family, towards the people in her life, and also the feeling of feeling a lot of hurt, not just from others but also even more impactful from self, and it was unfortunately this spiral of feeling like others are going to be mad at her and upset at her. And also this really strong feeling of not just self-criticism, but really punishing herself feeling that she was a bad person. I mean, just, it was a really strong, intense form of self punishment.
Now, what had happened in Fer’s life, unfortunately, is that her mom had been diagnosed with an aggressive form of cancer and died really fast, and as a result, Fer had been beating herself up, feeling that she was selfish and she didn’t spend enough time with her mother and just really being mean to herself in so many ways and just in the spiral for many years.
In fact, her mom had actually died more than 10 years prior, and yet there was this feeling of just self punishment and mean towards herself feeling. She was a really horrible person, and of course that’s not true. You could feel her heart. You could feel her care and her kindness, and yet just that feeling of just being so hard on herself was harsh and so that was a huge impact. Now, part of the reason that I wanted to emphasize this insight is because so often with mind body healing, people will think that a trauma occurred. And the reason that it was traumatic is because of the trauma itself. But so often it’s not necessarily the trauma itself.
Yes, that can definitely be impactful, but it’s the peripheral emotions that can also impact, or the lasting ones, where there’s a feeling of, again, both feeling criticized and punishing herself and feeling bad about herself and also. Feeling just this attack feeling or feeling like her family’s going to be against her.
It’s just all of these ongoing emotions that are also impacting her at a deeper level. And so the insight from this is just making sure that your mind is supporting you, because if your mind is against you or hurting you or mad at you or angry at you, that can have a detrimental impact. To who you become to your health, your happiness, your life, but conversely, all of the time I’ll see people as they rewire their subconscious mind, what happens, it’s like more and more of the best of them shows up, more loving, more happy, more joyous or kind, loving, caring, good, feeling good about self, more confidence. It’s just all around the best of them can show up and also, of course the body can heal itself.
And so that’s what I really love about this episode is just the deeper shift that needs to happen for healing, for transformation. I love first level of awareness and just her heart also. She’s truly such a sweetheart. And so on that note, by the way. If you’d like to listen to the entire session, you can do so by clicking the link in the show notes or if you’d like to gain a deeper level of understanding of mind body healing, there is also a free training that’s available there as well and as always, I want to ask you to please do take just a quick moment to hit the share button on this episode. Share it with somebody you love. Somebody you care about or somebody you don’t even know. Because the more that every single person in our world feels healthy and happy and loved and loving, the better this world is for all of us and so please do make a point to hit the share button, and please do make a point to have an incredible rest of your day. I look forward to connecting with you on the next episode. We’ll see you there.
Thank you for listening to Heal Yourself. Change Your Life. If you’d like to become a volunteer or join our members area, you can do so by visiting BrandyGillmore.com. Also, please remember to be responsible with your health. This podcast is for inspirational purposes only. You won’t want to make any changes to your medication or to your medical care based on this podcast.
Nor would you ever want to avoid seeing your doctor. Instead, it’s best to see your doctor regularly. Keep them informed on what you are doing, and you could make it your goal to blow their minds with what you are capable of with your mind. Thank you
IMPORTANT NOTE: We understand that some may believe mind-body healing is impossible. Therefore, if you would like to see images of individuals using their minds to relieve pain, you can check out this medical journal. It includes images from some of Brandy's case studies. If you want to learn how to use your mind to heal yourself, you can check out the training on Brandy's website. Each week, Brandy publishes a volunteer episode where she coaches a volunteer to heal themselves using their own mind. In addition, Brandy shares a quick IQ episode (Insights and Questions) where she answers listener questions or delves deeper into insights on working with the mind for healing. This podcast is for educational purposes only and is not a substitute for psychiatric or medical care.
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